Topic: Experiences of depression and anxiety

[Si]

It's hard. I've shoved most of it in a box in the back of my head tbf.

I got some really promising news today and the one person who would have appreciated it the most is gone. That s*** almost broke me.

In the immediate aftermath people were like "You'll think about it every day for the rest of your life" and they def weren't lying.

They really f***ing aren't lying, I'd heard that before and was like nah. Then having gone through it never a truer word spoken.

I'm so glad for your news though Mike, celebrate the victories. My plan is to get through Christmas then get my s*** together in the new year. I need to move on from my current job, and find something that makes me happy.

I'm so glad for your news though.

x2. It's twenty years since my mam went and I still know that the way I am is because she did that. Every day. She was a fighter, she taught me f***ing loads. Have a response, have spare stuff, be able to deal with t***s, all that. Y'all might laugh at my mad wife, and my crazy bosses and workmates, but I can only cope with that because she f***ing schooled me. She lived through WWII, her mam dying and her dad f***ing off, being fostered, all that, but was this tough woman.

I've got several things in my eyes now. Might put Metallica on. Love you all.

That's a lovely post mate, have a listen to this a mate sent it me the other day and it's glorious.

[Mike]

Bowie never covered Metallica so I've nowt to offer beyond to you sted. Hate being in this club.

[Mike]

Therapy today. I'm looking forward to introducing myself again. Maybe an accent. Think I'll be French this time.

[Si]

Therapy today. I'm looking forward to introducing myself again. Maybe an accent. Think I'll be French this time.

let us know how it goes mate. Sure it'll be better this time round.

[newsted]

Bowie never covered Metallica so I've nowt to offer beyond to you sted. Hate being in this club.

You're in Fight Club now, man, you never leave.

[newsted]

Therapy today. I'm looking forward to introducing myself again. Maybe an accent. Think I'll be French this time.

Spanish, I think you could pass the quiz. GO MIKE!

[Mike]

She's the type the try it again as patter. I can feel it in my bones.

[cubaricho]

If you don't dig your therapist, definitely find a new one.

I was very fortunate I found someone I really got on with from the very beginning and it's been really smooth sailing. But even sessions like yesterday - which was a bit all over the place and we covered some really intense and random things - I still trust in her which is essentially me trusting in the process too. If I didn't have that trust in her, it would all be for nothing.

So definitely find someone you get on with and trust. They don't take it personally if you want to find someone else too because they don't want you to have a bad experience and want what's best for you too.

[Mike]

  She remembered me. Solid session.

[Si]

Superb.

[newsted]

Some s****

That's a lovely post mate

Sorry, man. Forgot to say thanks, you're one of the reasons I'm on here.

[Amir_9]

Eurgh, been a horrendous 12 months and I feel all therapied out to be honest. I know what not to do and am accepting of the situation as much as I can but anxiety still being a pain.

One week from now I will have been on Sertraline for 3 months daily. Started 50mg and then for the last 4 weeks 100mg.

I can't say I feel like its doing much to lessen the physical symptoms of anxiety or anxiety itself.

I read that it can take upto 4 months for it to take full effect, but surely by 3 months you should be feeling some benefit? I felt better recently but I don't attribute it to Sertraline, its more to do with some reassurances i've received about one of my anxieties.

I know there is mindfulness and yoga, but I honestly wanted to do these things in combination with medication rather than without them.

100mg is the half max dose so surely should be feeling something by now. Will check with Doctor again soon, but has anyone been in a similar situation?

[Beren]

I feel a little exhausted. My youngest son (16 months old) needs surgery at the end of the month. My oldest son (3 and a bit) had similar surgery in January. I acknowledge my selfishness at feeling this way, when the boys are/have been the ones in pain/discomfort.

The process of getting the oldest diagnosed correctly, and having gone round the houses with the NHS was fairly awful and has really depleted my fortitude on this. I am actually really grateful we, ultimately, had access to private healthcare, because I am confident many other families in less privileged circumstances would have been misdiagnosed and the children given up on. Some of the waiting lists we were put on with the NHS exceeded 18 months. Eighteen f***ing months. This isn't a thread for ranting about healthcare and politics, I know, but that's absurd. 

I am thankful we have been to diagnose the issues and remedy quicker this time around, as they are so similar, but I feel as though I am careering my way down a hill with no real grip on the steering wheel and I'm going to drop one of the more important balls I'm juggling. How's that for a garbled metaphor.

[Mike]

f***'s sake, B. Sending love man. I don't know what else to say.

[Si]

I can't imagine what that's like, you should be immensely proud of what you've done for your family. Love to you and yours.

[Beren]

Thanks both Anxious about someone I know IRL reading this, for no logical reason.

Not that you're not all real.

[B-more Mag]

I'm totally a bot, but still running good thought algorithms for you anyway, Beren. Dealing with kids' health issues has to be one of the most stressful things you can go through. So don't beat yourself up for feeling the strain.

[Mike]

Not that you're not all real.

I'm the figment of your imagination that recommends anime and regularly tells you when and how to f*** yourself but even I know when it's time to shower our dude with love and support.

[David Edgar]

Really anxious about a dull pain in my left abdomen.  Been GPs and A&E.  Had blood and urine tests done.  2 doctors have given me a physical exam.  Tests came back clear and the doctors didn't seem at all concerned.  One said it is probably a muscle pull and the other said something about a mild spasm?  Yet, 2 days after visiting A&E, the dull ache is still there - had it for about a week now.  I'm convinced it is major and can't take the reassurances of either doctor seriously.

[Varadi]

If it's any consolation I know from experience that small abdominal muscle tears can take a good while to heal, mainly I think because it's such an active muscle group it's really hard to rest it properly.